I have been following a customized training plan and completed almost all the training plan that was given to me. However, as my training progressed, I realized that I wasn't getting any faster. It had seemed as if I had hit a plateau. My plan had me running less mileage, but more frequently.
I ran some races during this training cycle and all of them I crashed. I couldn't seem to pick it up. With each race, I started to doubt myself and my abilities. I felt beaten before every run.
Other than running with my little guy in the stroller, it has been a lonely training cycle. I don't really talk to people about my running anymore other than posting on Instagram and blogging. I am always inspired and motivated when seeing other runners post about their successes, but I wonder if it's making me feel worse about myself. I was able to get out on a few runs with a friend and was able to push myself to run harder than I had in any previous runs. These runs boosted my confidence a bit, but also helped me understand that I may perform better if I had other runners to help push me.
|My running buddy and I|
I am looking forward to the upcoming marathon just so that I can get it over with and start over again with the next marathon. I know it sounds crazy, but I am actually looking for another marathon to run next year. I am almost certain that I will not run a personal best, but I will finish. Finishing is an accomplishment on its own, but I am not going to give up my dreams. I will continue to train and chase down a BQ (Boston Qualifier).
|One Step at a Time|
Have you ever had to deal with self doubts ? If so, how did you deal with it?
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